10:37 a.m. - 2004-03-23
later today i am going for a scholarship interview. i get to talk myself up about teaching and how much i need the scholarship. i feel kind of deceitful when i do this. these people are going to think i am a happy, optimisitc, motivated teenager. i am just the opposite-minus the teenager part. they dont know i smoke, dex, roll, drink. they dont know about the suicide attempts, running away from home, having casual sex with 4 of my coworkers, wishing horrible violent deaths unto my mother. i feel a little bad. but if i can get their money, it wont matter. i be rich and theyll think im great. so, wish me more luck, if you would.
thanks. have a great day