9:41 a.m. - November 03, 2006
i dont think i was meant to be happy. ha! we are all meant to be happy, for some reason this is just harder for me than i thought itd be. whatever.
boyfriend. boyfriend. boyfriend. i dont kno how to do this. im so happy. he makes me so happy. but, when we arent together i just start doubting everything. its terrible. i drive myself crazy with my thoughts. and i drive myself crazy over driving myself crazy over a guy. thats dumb isnt it?
well, i guess thats because im a big dummy. a lovesick dummy