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1:12 a.m. - Friday, Jun. 05, 2009 i do not even know. where to start. tears flow. so easily. yet no words can follow. then from where/whence do they come? if no words are available to describe? i dont know. which makes it harder to transcribe. i am ridiculously sad and lonely. for the first time ever, i have been told by a professional to find love-a boyfriend. what do i do with that?? i am not sure. but when he said it, i knew. i deserve someone. its just no that easy. i just sent hector an unwarranted set of lyrics. and for that i am sorry. but what can i do? i feel what i feel. and i do not want to feel sorry for that. i am so afraid. i feel so unlovable. i feel so untouchable. i feel so....
im so scared... i am so SICK of saying that.
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