1:12 a.m. - Friday, Jun. 05, 2009
i do not even know. where to start.
yet no words can follow.
then from where/whence do they come?
if no words are available to describe?
i dont know.
which makes it harder to transcribe.
i am ridiculously sad and lonely.
for the first time ever, i have been told by a professional to find love-a boyfriend.
what do i do with that??
i am not sure. but when he said it, i knew.
i deserve someone. its just no that easy.
i just sent hector an unwarranted set of lyrics. and for that i am sorry. but what can i do? i feel what i feel. and i do not want to feel sorry for that.
i am so afraid. i feel so unlovable. i feel so untouchable. i feel so....
im so scared...
i am so SICK of saying that.