12:13 p.m. - Sunday, Jul. 12, 2009
im scared and excited.
its a first. i had cousins once...
i hope it doesnt go sour.
i hope it can materialize into something real and make the risk worth it.
i hate when it fizzles.
i want to be loved.
i want to be held.
i want to see his eyes when he looks at me.
its been a long time.
i shouldnt get ahead of myself here.
maybe nothing will happen at all.
maybe thats the smartest thing. but, no fun.