2:59 p.m. - Saturday, Jun. 26, 2010
what is an issue is this justin character that i just cant get out of my head. ever! his eyes. his hair. his laugh. ugh. everything. and i think he could like me too. but working with him in such a small office (only 6 employees??) is not making this easy for us! at auto relief group no one knew that jon and i even knew each other let alone dated once and hung out at that time.
but i know we could be so good. i know. i know. i know.
the sad thing is though...he has no idea that i deleted him from my facebook like in december. wtf. ill get him. of this i am sure. it may just take some time.
time for me to fix myself up a bit. weightwise as well as emotionally and every other waywise. but the foundations been laid. and he knows i dig him. soo...ive never not gotten what i really really wanted. and this goes in that category.
i havent written because ive had no reason. no drive. nothing going on. i hadnt even had sex this year (besides a drunk mistake with tremayne in january where no one finished) until last weekend (another drunk mistake, with karlos this time-and if i recall..no one finished. arent i a gem?). all ive done is drool over my soulmate and hated his homely girlfriend silently.
soon though. somethigns gotta give, right?? xoxo, you