11:04 a.m. - Friday, Jan. 27, 2012
deeeep breaths
why am i so dumb?
or maybe im just extra sensitive right when i wake up? or both..yeah..both.
for fucks sake. how nuts would i be to stop a good thing in its tracks because i havent heard from him in 23 hours?? not even a whole 24!
im going to hold off. everyday i try to weigh out whether the good feelings he gives me are worth the bad. the bad sometimes are more prevalent. but when alls good i cant imagine the bad.
i will wait. i will be cooler. i will wait. though i did mean everything i said in last entry.
