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9:37 p.m. - Sunday, Aug. 16, 2009 he rules my heart. its incredible how many facets, compartments, cubbies my heart has. for different people. in different times in different minds. i never kno how i feel until i feel it at a certain moment. a year ago i felt completely different. but nothings changed except for my mindset. he hasnt. i havent really. but i love him. i loved him before. i stopped. i stopped. i stopped in the sense that i was alright with him being with other girls. now, hes not here. i miss. i miss him. i miss him in ways ive never known him. but i love him, i loved him years ago. and years ago. i got hurt. i got over it. its hurt me all these years and ive just played jilted-but-still-faithful-wife. he doesnt know. how id love him. how im perfect for him. (i feel ive said this for someone else before, but i cant recall whom right now.) hes not here right now. another state. across this country from me. when he returns. i want to be it. i know what he wants. and that ive never been it. i will. because i love him. i love him like hes never been loved. pure, true love michael. i love you.
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